I relate to this strongly. I was deeply involved in a group that held some similar beliefs to a course in miracles for 10 years and am honestly contemplating going back. Same exactly as you shared--anti-therapy, anti medication, quick fix.. We addressed childhood trauma to a point of invalidating its effect because "it's just something playing in the brain--not happening now, and you can be free and well now!" On some level this is super true, and on another, it's injurious, insensitive, dismissive.
I probably don't really want to go back. I don't entertain it much but had a stressful experience today and can't sleep and it's probably just fight or flight kicking in.
I had an experience of returning to the group like your friend shared-- "oh my god you're mad!" regarding people I thought had the answers big time. And even with that, I still saw some good and think "well maybe if I just went back longer, the mirage would lift and I could feel the goodness here again."
Nobody there means to be abusive, I am sure.. Everyone really believes that this is the way. I kind of wish I still did. I feel lonely and have a really hard time connecting with other people. I'm not on meds or anything but I feel like something's got to give.
I work with a therapist who suggests I set my short term happiness on the back burner, work on self-regulating and try to set my life on track. I honor these ideas but feel scared I may not be strong enough. I appreciated reading your post, Julie. I feel slightly less alone.
I probably don't really want to go back. I don't entertain it much but had a stressful experience today and can't sleep and it's probably just fight or flight kicking in.
I had an experience of returning to the group like your friend shared-- "oh my god you're mad!" regarding people I thought had the answers big time. And even with that, I still saw some good and think "well maybe if I just went back longer, the mirage would lift and I could feel the goodness here again."
Nobody there means to be abusive, I am sure.. Everyone really believes that this is the way. I kind of wish I still did. I feel lonely and have a really hard time connecting with other people. I'm not on meds or anything but I feel like something's got to give.
I work with a therapist who suggests I set my short term happiness on the back burner, work on self-regulating and try to set my life on track. I honor these ideas but feel scared I may not be strong enough. I appreciated reading your post, Julie. I feel slightly less alone.