Thanks NickelandDimed,
I think I'm just starting to come to terms with things that I saw and ways that I was treated during those years. When I left, not only did I leave the Walk, I left the country for four years. I just buried it.
A lot of what I saw confused me more than anything. Like a roommate telling me she's sleeping with a married deacon in the Washington, Iowa church. I certainly never spoke to anyone about it. And looking back now, there were two individuals on separate occasions that really needed psychiatric, professional help, but they were put in a room at Shiloh, and I was part of a shift of people that watched them 24/7. Looking back now, I sure they were highly medicated, because they slept all the time. If something were to happen, I had no training, I wouldn't have clue what to do. There was definitely the vibe that Shiloh did not expose their business to the outside world.
And it does bother me that I just don't feel comfortable in any church (I've tried a few) and I'm not really sure why.
I think I'm just starting to come to terms with things that I saw and ways that I was treated during those years. When I left, not only did I leave the Walk, I left the country for four years. I just buried it.
A lot of what I saw confused me more than anything. Like a roommate telling me she's sleeping with a married deacon in the Washington, Iowa church. I certainly never spoke to anyone about it. And looking back now, there were two individuals on separate occasions that really needed psychiatric, professional help, but they were put in a room at Shiloh, and I was part of a shift of people that watched them 24/7. Looking back now, I sure they were highly medicated, because they slept all the time. If something were to happen, I had no training, I wouldn't have clue what to do. There was definitely the vibe that Shiloh did not expose their business to the outside world.
And it does bother me that I just don't feel comfortable in any church (I've tried a few) and I'm not really sure why.