Tknc Wrote:
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> This statement is something I have heard all my
> life (even though my family left the church in
> '82). The entire time I have been married to my
> wife, my family would tell me she "needs a
> revelation" of Christ and the body of Christ aka
> my family. She tried for four years. She never got
> one and my mom started calling her a heathen.
>
> This is not something you can explain to an
> outsider and there is no clear path to have it. I
> pretended for a long time that I had one to feel
> like I belonged to my family. This description of
> the inner core yielding is very accurate and
> scary.
My heart goes out to you Tknc. I am sure we have crossed paths some time in the past. Your story makes me feel sick to my stomach. It is just so sad. I know that you can take the people out of the Walk but not necessarily the Walk out of the people.
So many still hold JRS as the sacred cow--remembering the glory days before Marilyn. And yet little did anyone know that he was so very sick and willfully controlling us. His charisma ---truly he was loving---I guess it was overwhelming and to think that none of it was real just is beyond the pale--to invest so much--to lose so much.
I can only hope there was something gained in it--that it was not a waste. What your mother is doing is unacceptable and kudos to you for making a decision based on your life, not hers. The only hope of her changing her mind is to lose you because of it.
Stand your ground--it shows that you love your family but not at the cost of losing the good thing you have. May you be well and happy and find answers. Religion sucks and we in the LW got the worst case scenario--look at all those people who gave all--so old now--I guess the thought of it all being a sham is too much to face even if you know it is. But I am ever greatful for my escape that came with a cost-- but still--to have what is left of my life to live - what an adventure. I can cry but I still have joy. I wish you joy.
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> This statement is something I have heard all my
> life (even though my family left the church in
> '82). The entire time I have been married to my
> wife, my family would tell me she "needs a
> revelation" of Christ and the body of Christ aka
> my family. She tried for four years. She never got
> one and my mom started calling her a heathen.
>
> This is not something you can explain to an
> outsider and there is no clear path to have it. I
> pretended for a long time that I had one to feel
> like I belonged to my family. This description of
> the inner core yielding is very accurate and
> scary.
My heart goes out to you Tknc. I am sure we have crossed paths some time in the past. Your story makes me feel sick to my stomach. It is just so sad. I know that you can take the people out of the Walk but not necessarily the Walk out of the people.
So many still hold JRS as the sacred cow--remembering the glory days before Marilyn. And yet little did anyone know that he was so very sick and willfully controlling us. His charisma ---truly he was loving---I guess it was overwhelming and to think that none of it was real just is beyond the pale--to invest so much--to lose so much.
I can only hope there was something gained in it--that it was not a waste. What your mother is doing is unacceptable and kudos to you for making a decision based on your life, not hers. The only hope of her changing her mind is to lose you because of it.
Stand your ground--it shows that you love your family but not at the cost of losing the good thing you have. May you be well and happy and find answers. Religion sucks and we in the LW got the worst case scenario--look at all those people who gave all--so old now--I guess the thought of it all being a sham is too much to face even if you know it is. But I am ever greatful for my escape that came with a cost-- but still--to have what is left of my life to live - what an adventure. I can cry but I still have joy. I wish you joy.